thank you

thanks to her,
I had to go college yesterday.
so bloody early some more.
stay back till 3 just to accompany her.
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
but luckily, we had a good chat and she's fine with me leaving half an hour earlier.
if not she's gonna get shot by me again. LOL

thanks to her,
my friends were surprised to see me.
they thought they weren't gonna see me till exam day.
even exam day also dunno got time to see me or not.LOL
they said they missed me wo. they don't mean it gua.
well, anyway they were happy to see me.

but.. thanks to her,
I saw Ee Tien.
yea.. with her group of friends and Chun Kit in library.
I wonder what were they doing there? studying??
but last time she told me she couldn't study in library?
oh well..
seeing her happily mixing with her group of friends made me felt so uncomfortable.
anyway.. it's my bad too.
I didn't approach her.
as usual.. I'm afraid of the awkwardness between us.
it's kinda upsetting.
I wish I have more balls to overcome the awkwardness, the pain and join her gang more often, mix with her more and know her more well.
If I could, I would be with them today and maybe happily chatting with them, instead of just watching them from one corner of library.
aye, I guess I was hurt not because I saw her and Chun Kit together but thinking of useless me not making enough efforts to be her close friend.
I believe Chun Kit is her close friend now? It could be more. (OMG pls no)
jeezz.. let's hope this does not happen again in university next year.
that incident gave me more determination to change next year.
sigh.. that's why I prefer not to go library anymore.
so many unpleasant views. >.<