not alone

I kept thinking.
I kept asking myself why was I emo after yesterday's post.
since I dowan to have Ee Tien as my gf, why should I expect so much from her?
if she shows any interest towards me, I won't take any further actions too.
so.. I don't think I should expect any response from her.
and I should be happy with our moment yesterday. ^^ it's a good ending anyway.

today.. saw Melody and her new best friend.
as usual.. she waved at me.
I waved back.
eh? what?? you waved back at her??
yea.. I'm not that mad at her already.
I got over their relationship already too.
like after 2 weeks knowing about it? WOW (I know it's fast)
but sometimes, I still don't feel comfortable seeing them together especially when I'm alone.
it's not that I'm jealous both of them are together.
but is that.. she has found her happiness leh.
I don't know whether they are really happy to be with each other (I don't bother anyway) but at least.. she's not alone.
she can share all her feelings with him.
and me.. sigh...
when I'm happy, I only blog.
when I'm sad or emo, I also only blog.
sigh.. no complains knowing myself as a loner. =(
last time I do tell my problems to Ee Tien but now.. I no longer do so.
I feel bad leh.. everytime also must listen to my problems and comfort me.