Sad

Yes. Emo post again.
Why?
Bcos the bookmark I made for Ee Tien is destroyed.
I fai sii explain how it was destroyed.
I can say it's due to my own stupidity.
sigh..
So what can I do now?
Do all over again for her lo.
FUCK

Well, while making it.
I thought a lot.
I was thinking.. is it worth it making a new one for her?
Does she really deserve it??
Is she someone very special to me?
and.. how is our relationship now? Is it very good?
Am I making this just bcos she makes me smile?

Damn it. I couldn't answer them.
If I answer yes for last question, then Joon Leng deserve it more.
I'm confused.

Anyway, it's done already.
Should I pass it to her?
If yes.. I wonder what her reaction will be?
Will she really appreciate it??
What if I will ended up being hurt even more?

sigh.. why am I thinking so much?
If I'm willing to join in her group of frens, talk to her more, join her for outing or watching movies and so on..
I shouldn't be worrying all these questions in my mind.
FUCK
I really can't do it la.
I admit I'm anti-social.. I just dislike joining a large group.. knowing myself as quiet, introvert person by nature.
and I feel.. I couldn't talk much to her now.. for some unknown reasons.. It feels so different compared to last time.
Maybe it's cos my feelings for her is different liao...
DAMN
I guess people like me will have to live forever as a bachelor la mahai..