the end

I thought of giving the bookmark to her next week since it's the last week of our course.
I planned the drama liao.
setting la, script la etc XD
But today I when took out my file, I saw one of the petals bent already.
FUCK!!! X(
I can no longer keep the bookmark with me.
I had decided to give it to her TODAY before it's condition gets worse.

before I gave the bookmark to her, I saw her with her friends.
then one of her friends:
Samantha: hey! Jeremy! u see ur wife!
me: wife? wa... (it's my dream man!)
I don't really remembered what happened right after that but I think she said something to deny her fren's statement. (sometimes it's better to don't know than know LOL)
I told Ee Tien that I have something to give her and.. because her fren is still teasing us, I walked off lo. Damn awkward leh.
then her fren again:
Samantha: Ee Tien! your husband walked away ady! faster follow him la!
she even told her frens that I Ee Tien's 'husband'. =.=
but the saddest part is..
Ee Tien: Noo!! he's not my husband! he's someone's else husband!!
I heard it when I was heading towards library.
sigh.. even though she may not mean it but it's not something nice to hear.
maybe.. she actually mean it leh?? haih..

in library later, as least she smiled at me as she approached me. better than last time lo. ^^
after getting rid of all the kacau dauns, I finally gave it to her.
to my surprise, she was very happy with it.
dunno why I'm surprised though, maybe I didn't expect so much from her reaction considering our current relationship.
more surprise, she even wanted the 1st bookmark. WOW
I didnt expect her to cherish the crumpled bookmark too. ^^
somemore said I 'added too much baja' 0n the 1st bookmark that's why it's fat. WTH ^^
after Q & A section for the bookmarks I told her:
me: I spent 8 hours to do ur bookmark, how are u gonna balas my budi??
Ee Tien: Eh.. I make you back flower? XD JK la I dun think I can make flower as nice as these. Maybe I can get something else to do.
I wonder.. will she make something for me?? I'll be very happy leh.
later part.. normal conversation lo.
sigh.. I seriously feel awkward talking to her now. I dunno why am I so cautious while conversing. I just somehow afraid to offend her. our conversation now and back then is sooooooo different!
Wah Heng.... what is wrong with you???? she's nicely talking to you like how she did back then!!
sigh.. belum ada GF sudah bersembang macam ni..
ada GF nanti macam mana? tak bersembang langsung?? tak guna betul mu ni!
well, before she left.. I asked her again whether she's happy with the bookmarks. (too curious)
she once again answered she was very happy with them.
it's good. mission accomplished. all I want is her to be happy with the bookmarks. ^^

well.. I dun think I wanna meet her again.
Yes, I'm gonna avoid her.
I hate the awkwardness between us. and lagi hurtful is when I see her happily mixing with Chun Kit's gang.
I know the awkwardness is due to my fault but.. I couldn't do anything about it.
I think it's better to avoid her la. I dowan to get hurt anymore leh. =(