3 days left

counting today, it's 3 days left to the end of AUSMAT.
something not very nice happened this morning.
I saw Ee Tien wearing the AUSMAT T-shirt.
I don't feel comfortable.
1) I was supposed to wear it too but I forgot! FUCK
2) Chun Kit that ******* surprisingly wore it so they were like couples the whole time. FUCK
and then, after our listening practice, Ee Tien saw me, just say HI and walked off with her friend.
WTH
Didn't even wait for my response. I did say HI back but before I could talk to her she walked off. =(
looks like the bookmarks didn't make any difference NOT EVEN A SLIGHT ONE.
oh well.. I already told myself not to expect too much from them. =)

anyway, on Wednesday which is the last day of AUSMAT.
hmm... I feel like.. letting Ee Tien know my feelings towards her??
I just wanna tell her everything what happened from last time till now.
I know it's a suicidal move but since I'm not gonna see anymore after my last day of exam so why not??
should I???

oh yea.. actually after exam we have the prize giving ceremony.
like prom night I think.
well I have decided to be absent on that night.
4 reasons,
firstly, I'm actually not really close to my college mates who shared table with me. some more most of them got gf/bf ady. later they sit 1 pair 1 pair I macam mana??
plus, I don't talk much to college mates except Shun Hong and Chung Ee.
so.. I got the feeling it's gonna be very awkward leh that time.
what about my high school friends?? well they have their group already. I not close to them lo. it makes no difference to join them. :S
secondly, I don't feel like seeing all the people that I disliked anymore. I'm so desperate to get them out of my sight leh.
later during that night I cannot tahan and start throwing food and drinks to them then how??? LOL
thirdly, Ee Tien is turning up on that night too.
I'm scared.. of the awkwardness between us again.
who knows I have confessed to her ady? (if you bother to read above post LOL)
lagi teruk right? what if during that night she screams when she sees me?? LOL
and I'm also scared.. what if she dance with Chun Kit that *******? while I'm watching them from one corner with my blood and tears pouring on my face? NOOOOOO!
lastly, my mind is all about Monash University.
I went there with Wen Leong and Weng Hoe to enquire on Engineering courses.
after enquiring, we went touring around the campus for a while.
OMG that place is really beautiful. the environment is seriously different from Sunway man.
I'm looking forward to entering that University and start a new life. =)

yes I know.. I'm thinking too much seeing the first three reasons.
but seriously.. if anything happens, it's gonna be a bad ending for my last day of AUSMAT leh.
I don't want that to happen. =(
I want a good ending for my AUSMAT!
so I might as well end my day on my last exam day?
I just need to study hard for it and do well.
Then it's a good ending or.. a satisfactory ending for my AUSMAT. much better =)

for this post, I would like some comments or advices. anyone?