last day

today is the last day of AUSMAT and.. it's not really a good day for me. =(
I didn't get to tell Ee Tien my feelings for her leh.
sigh..
we did met up but not for long.
she got me a gift. it's a football keychain with my name (Jeremy) next to it.
not very special gift la but not bad leh. cos I never expect any gift from her.
well.. maybe she dowan to owe anything. =(
just when I was about to tell her, she received a call, went off for a while, then came back and tell me she had to go to applics class.
so.. no opportunity liao..
later I text her to thank her for the gift.
ehh.. at the end of sms.. I stated that I have something to tell her but disappointed bcos she left early.
no reply from her after that. O.O
sigh.. maybe she thought I wanna confess to her.
it's not like I wanna confess also. something similar only ma. CIS! XD
and.. another sad part is..
I told her that I'm not turning up for awards night ceremony.
she looks fine with it. like.. (O.o I see =) <----- what's with that face expression!? )
some more suggested me ways to lie to the person in charged. WTH!! (T_T)
so in the end.. I got even more bukti that she doesn't like me.
quite disappointing.. but it's expected ady. =(
oh well.. at least I got a farewell gift from her.
I shall treat it as my charm and study hard. =)
I wanna study in Monash U!!

since I failed to tell her today. I was thinking.. I should tell her through sms or email???
I really wanna let her know leh.. and.. I also dowan a bad ending for us. =(
but in the end.. I think it's not needed ady.
it won't change anything right?
well.. fate shall decide for me?? LOL
and.. I shall reconsider to go for the awards night. thanks Joanne ^^
I'll try to be a man! XD