part 1: the story

to the dedicated reader,
if you are reading this. thank you so much! =)
I really appreciate it
as this is first long post you have to read
and there will be two more to go after this. xD
as I stated I will begin with how I knew fourth till now.
well.. actually it was already stated in previous posts. =p
I will summarize everything in this post. =)

hmm I don't really remember the first time seeing her.
I think it was the time during Chemistry lesson.
she was sitting behind Marcus. =/
then when I sat with Marcus, that's when the time I knew her.
our first conversation was.. about the subjects we took.
then we realized we were in the same class for Applics. lol

well, she made the first move for our friendship.
she got my hp number and requested for my Chem TEE Study Guide through sms. O.o
then.. as time passes we knew each other better.
I noticed she is quite good looking and most importantly she has.. very nice eyes. O.O
so.. I felt she has the chance to be my next target (more targets the better it is XD) and I braved myself to get her email. =p

after knowing her a little through msn conversation,
she gave me the impression that she's a very good girl
as in.. very hardworking in studies. O.o
I expected girls like her to act cutely. (you know.. Grace.. ==)
but she didn't act that way and she was cool all the way. o.O
well.. actually she did behaved cutely occasionally but she didn't realized it. lol
wow.. good looking, hardworking and.. cute. haha
I was a slightly attracted to her already =p
so I told myself to talk to her more so that I will know her well and be her good friend. ;)

indeed our friendship did progressed.
I joined her group for outing once.
I studied with her some times.
I had lunch with her twice (I think).
we took the same japanese lesson.
I had short sms conversation with her (and realizing her habit of not replying people =.=)
hmm.. everything was going well.

ah I remembered one moment.
it was during AUSMAT Teachers' Day.
since all the students were forced into MPH,
she decided to run away.
I thought she was joking and to my surprise,
she ran away. O.O
so I immediately followed her and together we left MPH. XD
it was a cute moment. =D
then together we headed to foyer and we talked a little about ourselves.
wow.. I didn't know it was a very nice moment. =D
and on the following day when we met I remembered she made a very cute action. LOL
I felt comfortable with her already.

in addition, she didn't mind listening to me and my second's problem too.
and she accompanied me many times when I was alone. o.o
to thank her, I remembered I gave her a keychain.
she was surprised to receive it and..
she offered me handshake WTF LOL.
well.. I already got her a gift before I even liked her. lol
at that time, I knew if I really like her I will have to get her more gifts. XD
can't really blame me.
I believed gifting is a superb option at that time. =p

and about a month before Evaluation Exam..
I think this is where the mistake came. =/
my second was hurting me so badly that.. I was a little desperate for comfort.
so.. I began sighting my fourth as my next target. >.<
I told myself.. if she wished me good luck for my driving exam on the day before the exam,
SHE WILL BE MY NEXT TARGET!
and.. she did wished me. O.O
I stupidly believed that this idea was fated and it's set she's my fourth target. =D
that's why she was the first person I messaged when I passed the exam. LOL
*sighs*
if only I didn't come up with that idea. =.=

so.. I sort of began taking actions to progress our friendship.
I requested her to accompany whenever when I alone.
I purposely join her for studies
and more that I don't really remember already. =/

oh by the way, I remembered one embarrassing moment.
it was the time when I waited for her to finish her exam. >.<
I thought it was a good idea.
maybe it was good but very bad timing. ==
so I waited and walked with her and her friends back to foyer.
it was rather awkward as she was busy conversing with her friends in mandarin
while I was ignored and unappreciated. =(
the worst moment was when her friend teased us.
fourth's reaction was heavy.
I think she said something in mandarin like, "there's definitely definitely nothing between us!"
T___T
at that time.. I realized I overdid it. =.=
I thought.. maybe ignoring her once in a while would be a good idea. LOL
so that's how I began to be friendly with her at one moment and ignore her at another moment. X(

erm.. around end-July to early-August,
I got her birthday date through Charis. hehehe ;D
decided to give her a nice birthday present.
so I planned to get her a bottle of lucky stars. (inspired by my cousin hehe)
I managed to fold the lucky stars in time and successfully presented her present to her. *phew*
she was happy to receive it. =D
she thanked me on that night and...
she gave me a misleading text message that kept me wondering till last year. (wanna find bf with lai surname =.=)
I was hoping she will think differently of me after receiving that present.
however on the following day she treated me like normal.
*sighs* I knew I was expecting too much. X(

and then as time passes..
I didn't know whether I was being sensitive or not.
I noticed her treatment towards me had been a little cold. O.o
she no longer bothered with my existence.
hmm for example,
she no longer accompanied me when I alone. (she wasn't like that before EE)
and she didn't show any concern when I was sick until I told her to do so. =.=
I really wondered why
because I felt her treatment towards me before I set her as my fourth was better. O.o
hmm
maybe I was expecting too much from her
because sometimes I did imagining that we will be very close on one day. LOL WTF
*sighs*
if I just like her as a friend maybe I wouldn't hurt so much.

moreover, another effect had taken place.
I was beginning to dislike it when I saw her being close to guy friends. LOL
I really hated it when I saw this guy kept being with her and messing with her (you all know who that guy is =.=)
the worst is when I saw her hugging Marcus WTFFFFFF
and I saw it thrice. RAWRRRRR
at that time I wanted a hug from too. =(

well, knowing that she likes lavender.
I decided to make her a lavender bookmark.
it's a long story why it's a bookmark. =.=
I made the first prototype.
it looked great even though it was fat.
I thought of giving her until later I realized it was somehow crushed in my bag. =__=
then I made a second one and thank goodness, it was very much nicer and lavender-like. XD
I planned to give to her on the final day of AUSMAT
as well as letting her know I feel
however because I kept it too long in my bag, one of the petals was bent. >.so immediately I gave it to her.
again she was happy to receive it.
she even took the first prototype. O.o
I was happy of course because I felt appreciated.
well again I hoped she will treat me better than a normal friend.

nothing much has changed with her treatment.
on the last day of AUSMAT,
I requested her to accompany for the last time.
I told her that I might not go for the AUSMAT Awards Night
and WTF no extraordinary reactions from her! >.<
then.. during exam, I didn't meet her often.
but I remembered during Applics exam.
she was walking with her friends
and I greeted her.
I noticed her reaction that time was slightly different and her friends were giggling.
hmm it was mysterious
but well.. it is already answered now.
that time she knew that I liked her already. >___<

finally.. AUSMAT Awards Night.
she was late. O.o
and to my anger and jealousy, she came in with that guy. O.O
WTF what a start to my night. =.=
well, my aim for attending that night was to take a picture with her.
and the opportunity came. =D
at that moment, LOL I purposely grabbed her shoulder and held her slightly closer to me. (talking about the arrival of darkside XD)
it was my first time doing so to her and I was excited. hah! =p
after that.. hmm didn't really talk with her. =/
before I went home I just talked a little to her and..
that was already the last time I seen her for that year. =(

during the holidays..
I was quite determined to workout and earn money
and make attempt to court her again. X)
well.. I didn't talk to her at all. *facepalm*
but I really envied her during that month.
she enjoyed herself so much in Taiwan
and she did brilliantly in her AUSMAT exam (she got above 90 TER O.O)
while I screwed up my exam.
it was quite depressing as I hoped to do well (preferably better than her LOL) and prove her that I can study too. ;)
however I failed. =(
moreover, I was forced to take IELTS or else I have to say goodbye to Monash uni. >.<
I felt so miserable at that time. >__<

wow I'm done with 2009 story!
another extremely long post. =.=
I thank everyone (including you, fourth if you really read the entire post) for taking their time to read this post. =D
I guess story stops here.
as for 2010 story.. it was a painful one to blog. >.<
anyway, the previous posts pretty much tell the story. =p
before ending this post,
I would like to indirectly thank her for my success in IELTS
because after finding out she was going to study in Monash uni, I was so determined to score well and enter the same uni as her.
otherwise I would be considering other universities xD