the desire to play well

feeling dissatisfied and unhappy yesterday,
I came up with a status on FB.
obviously it was dedicated to those two. =.=
I think it offended one of them
since he came up with his own status
stating some unpleasant words.
not sure it was meant for me.
but I didn't mind.
I did offended him anyway. ><

oh well, whenever I talk to my friends about basketball,
they always don't bother. =(
they came up with many reasons,
"it's just a game"
"I'm just playing for fun"
"who cares? at least I'm good at other sports"
"well there's nothing we can do"
*sighs*
I think practice is a good solution to these problems.
I wonder where is their ambition.
if they seriously don't give a damn about basketball,
then why play basketball? O.o
don't they feel satisfied if they play well and win games? >_<

I hope there will be someone who understands how I feel.
it's not like I want to be a professional.
I just want to play well and help to win games. =/
I hate it whenever I fail to contribute in a game. >.<

oh well, I know.. teammates are equally important.
but my teammates can be really disappointing at times. =.=
maybe I expected too much from them.
anyway, at times I will disappoint my teammates too. lol

well sadly, desire is present but talent is absent.
my form is inconsistent. >.<
sometimes, I played really well
but I played like a noob at times too. X(
moreover, I had height disadvantage. ==
I never won taller players for rebound. T___T
I wonder how much difference it will be if I'm much taller. ><

oh well, no point complaining.
I just have to keep practising.
only time will tell when I'm truly satisfied with my own performance. =)

bye bye bye~