my CHM1011 partner

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I wonder how to begin this post..
ah let's begin with how I knew her during AUSMAT times.
hmm I think I knew her through Stephanie. O.o
after knowing her, I knew she is an excellent student already.
Stephanie told me she got full marks for Add Maths trial O.O
and moreover she could do all the crazy questions for Calculus. O__O
wow~
anyway I didn't talk to her much. =/

during January, somehow I found out that she's going to Monash uni
and I knew that she didn't do well for EALD
so I informed her that she has to take IELTS to enter Monash uni.
luckily I did informed her because she didn't know about it. ;)

well, during the first day of semester one, me and Wen Leong met up with her first.
she was being quiet as usual.
she never initiated the conversation. =.=
and surprisingly she was talkative to Marcus and Jo. O.o
hmm understandable since she knew them well since AUSMAT.

then later, three of us were in a group for Physics.
she was the one who suggested it.
I guess it was because she only knew us both at that time. ==
we worked quite well.
Wen Leong contributed the idea/theory,
she contributed the elaboration and effort
while I contributed nothing. T___T
as we got more projects,
she wanted us to allocate more time for discussion.
it was difficult for us as we needed to leave early at times
or.. we need to work on other assignments.
so many times we let her down and
she somehow got increasingly frustrated as time passes. (I could tell from the way she reacted)

then for PSA grouping.
before me and Wen Leong were able to select our group mate,
she already picked Marcus and Jo. (yes I saw it O.o)
WTF I thought we could be group mates again since we worked well for Physics.
and she kicked us out?
we weren't good enough for her? T__T
oh well.. maybe she believed Marcus and Jo are better since they did well for AUSMAT finals. =.=
anyway this wasn't the first time.
for Eng. Dynamics she also picked them as group mates. O__o
at that time I was determined to work hard for PSA and prove to her that we can still do well without her. >:(
however.. her group scored the highest mark for PSA internal. >.
I could tell she was so happy with her PSA group
while she was rather unhappy with me and Wen Leong being her Physics group mates.
she constantly told us off whenever we made mistakes (like my mistakes for Rube Goldberg test)
and she came out with sarcastic remarks when we weren't able to cooperate with her. >.<
hmm we were still fine with it because seriously she did most of the job for Physics project. =)

towards the end of semester one,
I expected her to be talkative to me and Wen Leong like how she did to Marcus and Jo
since we knew each other quite well already.
and.. surprisingly again she still never talked to us. O___O!
WTF
that's why we no longer like to sit next to her during lecture
as we knew it would be a quiet session.
moreover I think she's very scary in lecture
as she constantly asked me difficult questions (for my standard). >.<
when I failed to answer her, she immediately asked other people the same questions.
WTF she didn't realize that she was demoralizing me. =.=
moreover, I remembered there was a moment
when in auditorium there's empty seat next to me.
she came in and I expected her to sit with me so I reserved that seat for her.
to my surprise, she chose to sit with Marcus instead.
WTF
oh well fine I knew Marcus is smarter than me. =(
but.. I was still able to tolerate. =/

the time I really got annoyed with her was during second semester.
she purposely allocate the same timetable as Marcus and Jo except for Computing lab.
it's obviously she wanted to be in the same group as them. =.=
well, her wish came true.
she was in the same group as them for both ENG1030 and ENG1020.
I was annoyed with her group for ENG1020 because the group mates were supposed to be selected randomly
but three of them purposely avoided it by skipping their tutorial session
and hence the tutor had no choice but to put them in a group. WTF
I was thinking, "why can't three of them be separated? O.o"
at that time I really hoped for my ENG1020 group to do better than them
so I worked really hard for my group. (like coming back to uni on Saturdays for discussion)
in the end I think we did better them for internal. (thank you Ashrar, Joy and Shawn! X) )

then the nightmare came for CHM1011.
since only two of us took that unit,
I was with her for the whole time. (everywhere except tutorial class) =.=
and.. obviously I was forced to be her partner
or else she will be alone which is very pitiful. *sighs*
hmm now I wonder if she had the same thought at that time. LOL

I had plenty of scary experiences being her lab partner.
in the lab.. I was more or less like her assistant
my job was to carry apparatus and take materials needed
while her job was conducting experiment. T__T
she volunteered to conduct the experiment as she thought I who is prone to making mistakes was not capable of conducting the experiment. T__T
she didn't say it but I knew it somehow. *sighs*
whenever I made mistakes, she shook her head and told me off.
it was demoralizing. =(

then for report writing,
I didn't had any problems as I got many sets of reports from seniors. ;D
however she was struggling with it initially
since she only got a set of reports from her mentor.
so, she constantly asked me for ideas and solutions.
I didn't mind (or rather I didn't had a choice) helping her
and.. when I gave her many solutions,
she began to wonder where I got those solutions from.
she asked, "where you got these ideas from?"
WTF
it was quite hurtful as I came up with those solutions by my own efforts. =(
so at later time, I didn't really bother to help her much. =/
she also no longer needed my help as she got many sets of reports already. =.=

in addition, when both of us were stuck,
she kept forcing me to ask for solutions from my friends. =.=
when I procrastinate, she told me off. >__<
I just wondered why she couldn't ask my friends by herself. ==

when the reports were returned,
she always got higher marks than me. =.=
WTF
we both wrote the same report.
same format,idea and solutions
just different paraphrasing. >.<
I did compare our reports.
I realized my demonstrator marked many of my solutions wrong
while she marked hers correct. O.O
WTF
I went to complain of course.
indeed my demonstrator said my solutions were wrong.
meaning.. hers were supposed to be wrong too. O___O
*sighs*
I told her about it
she said, "aiya most demonstrators get tired easily wan la when they mark so many reports"
and then she walked off. =.=
*sighs*
where's the justice? =(

oh well.. despite all these.
I was still able to tolerate
because I knew she wanted to do very well for that semester. =/
but.. somehow she continued to annoy me. =.=
on that semester,
she began to comment on everything I do.
the way I talk,
the way I use the com,
the way I handled the apparatus,
the way I draw tables for reports
and many many more.
WTF
the worse was when I answered her, she answered me back. >__OMG OMG OMG~

so.. I couldn't take it anymore.
I was no longer able to tolerate her. >.<
so from that moment until a week or two before finals,
I was ignoring her all the time.
I didn't even feel like talking to her nor telling her anything.
hopefully you all understand how I felt at that time. =/
she felt it too, so she also ignored me.
it was a very unpleasant moment I had to go through since I see her everyday. =(

well.. a week before exam.
I cooled down and started thinking rationally.
hmmm
she may be a biatch at times,
but ignoring her was very mean.
after all.. she's a lady.
ladies are hurt easily right? O.o
*sighs*
maybe instead of ignoring her,
I should tell her off? o.o

now when I think back of her actions,
actually there were many times she tried to be friendly with me (like trying to joke and failed LOL)
however I didn't respond. lol
it's actually a good thing right?
during semester one she was quiet most of the time
at least during semester two she was noisier even though at bad timing
it's what I wanted from her right?
for her comments.. =.=
in positive perspective, maybe she dared to comment because she felt a little comfortable with me already? O.o
it's actually better than knowing my mistakes and stayed quiet right?

well, I don't know whether she was right or wrong with her actions
but I feel so bad for treating her badly.
if I'm less sensitive,
maybe we would be close friends already. =)
anyway, I'm sorry for all the shits I have done to her =/
and I didn't find an opportunity to apologize. >.<
well honestly, even though I'm back to talking terms with her,
somehow.. I still didn't feel comfortable knowing that I will work with her again beginning next semester. XD

that's all about her
bye bye bye~