more inspiration?

I was bored.
I was at home the whole time.
I was lazy to practise my IELTS too.
so, to cure my boredom,
I went to stalk her Facebook profile.
no.. please.. don't call me stalker. LOL
then I came across her posts on her wall.
one of the posts, she mentioned that..
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SHE'S GOING TO MONASH UNIVERSITY TO STUDY!!
O.O
>.<
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O.M.G.
I couldn't believe it!

well, I have mixed feelings actually.
yes, I'm happy that she's going to Monash University.
because, if I pass my IELTS, I will be able to see her again.
man.. I missed her. T.T
I thought we won't be meeting each other anymore. ^^

however, I'm a little sad too.
Monash University is no longer a good place to start a brand new life.
since I'll be seeing her again, (well again if I'm able to enter Monash University lol)
all the negative feelings will come back to me.
disappointment,
sadness,
jealousy,
anger
they all will be back.
sigh~
I already had enough of those feelings last year.
I don't wanna have them again.
and.. I'm really afraid our relationship will be exactly like how me and Shu Yi was at the beginning of last year.
u know, at that time she ignored me and concentrated on her new friends.
plus I was desperate for her attention and getting hurt most of the time.
>.<

well, let's not talk so much bout it.
because I haven't pass my IELTS exam yet. LOL
I don't know if this info I got will inspire me to work harder or otherwise.
but, definitely I'll still work hard for my IELTS. ^^
by the way, I wonder if she knows that I wanted to study in Monash Uni.