my ENG1030 practical exam

some of you may be wondering WTF am I posting this.
but seriously on that day.
I was very very upset.
I think it worth a post here. =P

well, on the week before exam,
the school released 7 questions that usually will be tested for the exam
and advised us to practise on those questions.
however I didn't had much time since I was so busy with my uni work. =/
I started practising on Tuesday and the lab closed at 9pm. GOOD
on Wednesday I had only 2 hours to practise as the lab closed early. NOT GOOD
on Thursday the lab was closed due to public holiday. REALLY NOT GOOD
well, my last hope was Friday.
but.. on Friday the lab closed early again
which means after my lecture I only have half an hour to practise!?? WTF!?
so I had no choice but to skip my lecture. =(
I practised about 3 hours and it was still no good progress. =(
out of 7 questions.. I could only do 4.
I was so worried if they test me on the remaining 3 questions during my exam. >.<

my exam was held on Tuesday.
I was very nervous of course.
however, according to Wen Leong,
he got full marks for the exam. O.O
what the.. really?
he said the tutors were very lenient.
as long as we know what we are doing, we are getting full marks.
wow.
I was pretty relieved to hear that.

since the exam was divided into 2 sessions,
mine was the second one.
so while waiting, my friend told me what was going to come out for the exam.
O.O
somehow, he knew it and I believed him.
the leaked question was the one I practised before and I knew how to do it!
plus the tutors were lenient according to Wen Leong.
I thought, 'oh yes! I can get full marks too? =D'

with confidence I entered the lab
and indeed the question tested was exactly the one my friend told me
I worked everything well.
the result produced was the same as the one during practice.
I was excited.

then, my tutor told me to change something for my setup.
what? is he serious?
I asked him again and he said yes.
I was panicked.
my time was running out and I had to change my setup??
OMG
I really didn't know what to do
since my result was already as good as it is
so I told him whether I could show him my current setup and claim some marks first before trying to change.
well, I was ignored. >.<
then, I had no choice but change the setup.
it was already too late.
while trying to change, he came to mark my setup.
I requested him to give me some time to change since he told me last minute.
I was ignored again. WTF!
in the end, he said my setup has many mistakes and so..
I got 5/7.5%.
what.. 5!?
my setup had no mistakes from the beginning.
I tried to appeal and all I got from him was, 'too bad it's your own responsibility'
oh gosh.. what an attitude my tutor has. >.<
he was the one who told me to change my setup at last minute, ignored my request, took away my precious 2.5% and said it my responsibility for everything.
WOW

I talked to lecturer about it.
she said it's already over and try to work harder for finals.
I understood that she couldn't do anything about it
there weren't many people who got full marks for my session.
if she were to give me marks, it would be unfair to others.
*sighs*
it was very disappointing in the end.
I thought I could get full marks
in the end the result was far worse than expected.
2.5 out of 100% is a lot actually.
that's why I was so disappointed and upset.
I was in no mood for that whole week
and knowing other coursemates who got full marks for the exam just made my mood even worse. >.<

of course I had to blame myself too.
if I actually know how to handle the electrical appliances and components very well
and not only memorizing the correct setup for each question
then I wouldn't had panicked if there's change in plans.
*sighs*
my only hope was doing well in finals.

haha I guess this post is silly to some of you
it may be something trivial
but remember that I said I wanted to do well for this semester?
that's why I aimed to score as high as possible for internal so that I could afford to lose some marks for external.
a loss of 1% could upset me already and what about 2.5%? =/
well, I noticed one thing.
the disappointment feeling I had at that time..
was worst than the feeling I suffered when I got rejected. O.O
do you know the former feeling almost made me cried? LOL
wow..
I guess it just gives more evidence that the feeling I had for her wasn't real from the beginning. =/
thanks for reading.
bye bye bye~