hi-bye friend

I have made up my mind.
I'm not going to ignore Ee Tien.
but it doesn't mean I will be her good friend.
maybe just being her friend will do.
as in.. hi-bye friend.
after all, we are not close. =(
it is a disappointing fact.

well, imagine I really decided to ignore her
definitely we will bump into each other in the future
she may wave/say hi to me and I will ignore her
she may feel unhappy while I will feel uncomfortable doing so
knowing myself I will keep thinking about it
and maybe even blog about it. =P
it happened many times already -_-
this is not good.
that is why with this decision,
at least we still get to say hi-bye
and I believe I will think less about it
which is better for me in emotional wise.
alright then I will just treat her like how I treat Xuanlin. =)

well, I don't think I will approach her like how I used to anymore.
thinking about the way she treated me on last semester like..
taking her own sweet time to reply my sms
always reply my sms with a very short text
hardly replies me on msn conversation
constantly giving excuses to avoid accompanying me in university
no longer being enthusiastic when conversing with me like how she used to during AUSMAT
I had been facing these treatment for the whole time until my new life has begun.
is this the way to treat a friend? O.o
she had a stressful life she reasoned.
but could that be the excuse when she is treating her university friends so well instead.
alright I know she did made me happy by apologizing for walking past me.
and also comforting me when I couldn't get along with Zi Wei.
wait.. only twice she made me happy for the whole semester and the rest are all nothing but agony? O.O
*sighs*

anyway, what I'm going to do when I see her is
I will just say/wave hi to her.
and that should be about it.
better don't go for anymore actions that will backfire on me. =P
if she talks to me
I will just answer her for the sake of answering.

*sighs*
it is sad that our friendship will ends up like this.
well it could be worse actually. =P
if she was someone else like.. Joon Leng? (actually not necessarily her alright xD)
I wouldn't had to suffer so much.
I guess it is just my luck to have a crush on wrong person. =(

on that day she told me we can be good friends
by sharing our problems
but actually it is all the while I'm sharing my problems with her
never the other way round. :S
so if she really acknowledges me as her good friend like..
by treating me like how a friend should be treated
and start sharing her problems with me
maybe things will go well again. =)
I know it looks very demanding but this is what I really wanted. =P
however knowing her being an ignorant person by nature
I know it will never happen. =(

a lengthy and boring post it is.
I hope you people agree with my decision
and provide me support too. =D
that is all for today.
bye bye bye~