depressing+intimidating

for the first time,
I'm blogging away from my home. hehe
yes I'm in uni now.
I have project discussion with Wen Leong and Zi Wei later at 2.30pm.
and it's 10am now.
what the hell am I doing here so early!?
well, I don't have choice.
my dad isn't free to send me to uni in the afternoon.
sigh~
it's good thing.
I can study to kill time. XD
wait.. correction.
it should be I have to study!
I have been lazing for past 2 days.
I have to do something.
otherwise.. I would be in lost world again for next week. T.T

anyway.. talking about my course,
it's quite depressing.
I think I'm the weakest student in my group.
during lecture, I'm always the only one who has difficulty in understanding what the lecturer is talking about.
while they could understand most of it. O.o
also, they could solve all the tutorial questions by themselves.
and I have to struggle so much to solve them.
I feel so stupid. =(
well anyway, they are smart.
Zi Wei scored TER99 and Marcus scored TER93.
definitely they won't struggle in their studies.
even Wen Leong and Jo with TER below 90 also could understand what they are studying.
because both of them have good command of English.
me? hey I had to take IELTS exam just to get in to my uni.
sigh~
it's hard to keep up with them.
I'm wondering..
are they too smart?
or there's something wrong with me instead?
well, I don't know how long can I survive in my group.
I feel like quitting my group
but it's going to be hard man.
sigh~
I worked so hard to enter my dream uni.
and looking forward to start a new life.
now.. I'm starting to dislike my uni.
I don't like the life I'm having now.
it's so intimidating. =(