1/3/2011

my mood was good until after CHE2164 lecture.
during the lecture, we were told to form a group of 4.
so, in my mind I thought Zi Wei and I will be in a group.
just need 2 more students to join us.

well, after lecture I wanted to talk to Zi Wei regarding our group.
to my shocking, she joined other group already.
WTF O.O
I couldn't believe it.
I told her that I wanted to join her
as well as letting her know that Chee Chian is also interested to join us.
she remained silent. =/
I knew she insisted on joining those three girls.
wow
leaving me hanging just like that?
*sighs*
fine then.
I have to search for a new group. =/
it was kind of shocking. =(

then, I asked her to join us for lunch.
she refused. O.o
then, during maths lecture.
she didn't join us. o.O
hmm alright....
before CHM1022 lecture started,
I saw her with her new group mates.
then I asked her where was she the whole time.
she said she was with her group mates the whole time.
wow.. ok..
they became close friends in such a short time? O.o

and the worst part was..
she even joined them in the lecture
leaving me alone. =.=
until one of them pitied me for sitting alone
and gave up her seat to me.
moreover, other people questioned me, 'hey Wah Heng how come you are sitting alone? that's so sad!' >.<
err seriously it was quite hurtful.
I was being nice to accompany her yesterday
and this is what I get. =.=

man.. I felt I was 'robbed' and betrayed. >.<
I was really shocked by all the shits that happened to me.
well, I was angry at first. >:(
for leaving me alone just like that.
but then.. as I calmed down
I realized that it was what I wanted all the while.
at least.. she made the first move to leave me right?
now I no longer need to force myself to accompany her. ;D
moreover, she never said we will be group mates from the beginning. ==

but.. I really want to be in the same group as her for assignments/projects. =(
she is really hardworking you know.
it's not like I can't contribute at all. =.=
oh well, maybe she thinks those girls are better than me
or because there's a very smart dude who are close to those girls. =/
*sighs*
anyway, it's her decision.
I hope Chee Chian's group mates are all hardworking. ;P

well, I'm wondering.
all the while those girls know that I'm close to Zi Wei.
how come they never consider my feelings when they persuaded Zi Wei to join them?
unbelievably, Hui Wen is one of them. =.=
knowing her, I have a feeling that she is the one who persuaded her.
hmmm
oh well, it's Zi Wei's decision after all. lol

alright I'm done with complaining.
there're no reasons to be mad at her actually.
maybe I was just shocked. >.<
man.. tomorrow I wonder whose group I should join.
must start scouting. XD
bye bye bye~