friends

yesterday my brother's phone spoiled.
so he has no choice but to use my old phone, W810i. O.o
then, since he's using it, I might as well tengok-tengok my phone for a while lo since I very long didn't use ady.
wow.
see back all my cartoon wallpapers, my old football videos, my messages and others.
and.. my outdated music playlist. it's updated will March.
then I found this music titled "Aishiteru".
well actually.. this song is kinda meaningful la.
I always think of this song when something good happened between me and u-know-who at that time.
then.. I suddenly think back of my circle of friends at that time.
friends k.. not acquaintances..
oh my god.
they are like.. 2 different groups man.

at time.. I stick more to my high school and tuition mates, (u-know-who, her bf, Michele, Sook Kwan, Catherine etc)
I did mix with u-know-who's gang of friends, so called the FANTASTIC FOUR.(because it's just four of them) XD
very little new friends I made.. like Jo-Vei, Kenny and Chan Yip. damn it I think that's all.
I think I also mix with Ee Tien and her friends. but not close to them
not forgetting about Xuan Lin too? ^^

and now.. my friends.. most of them are from SJ school. lol
Shun Hong, Chung Ee, Kwok Hoe, Wai Hong and other college mates lo. still got Jo-Vei and Kenny la.
somehow.. I made more friends la this time. (talking about advantages of staying back in library hehe)
also.. I'm happy to have gal friends like Joon Leng and Ee Tien la.
and I feel that Joon Leng is much closer to me than Ee Tien even though I know Ee Tien much longer.
I also got join in the smart ppl gang. They are Chan Yip's friends and man.. they are special because they are weird but smart. XD
anyway, I didn't join them for long. maybe due to their attitude problem la.

anyway, the one who remained to be my close friend is only Wen Leong.
Ben and Weng Hoe are still my good friends. ^^
btw, I still cant believe I can get along with Weng Hoe till now. LOL

hmm.. I really have no idea why I was trying so hard to force myself to be sociable at that time.
I tried my best to get along with many gals.. and get my arse mixed in every possible group of friends.
well, I believe at that time.. u-know-who has a lot of friends? and I wanna match up with her lo. I feel like proving to her that I can also be sociable.
*sighs* it's actually useless la.
those many groups of friends to me.. are not friends.. they are actually acquaintances.
maybe they can be friends.. if I put more efforts to get close to them.
but what for??
is it actually a necessity to get oceans of friends??
sometimes, I don't understand why some ppl are so proud of themselves just because they claimed they have many friends? my sister is a fucking good example.
I feel like asking those proud ppl: "well, are they ur friends for real? friends that u meet or contact everyday? or.. just virtual friends or what.. hi-bye 'friends'?" got difference wan lo.
what I really learn this year is the importance of distinguishing friends and acquaintances la.
at least the friends I made now.. they are always ready to help me when I'm in trouble la. not just hi-bye. it's good.
but, I better not expect so much from the friendship I'm having at the moment.
u know la, friends come and go ma.
*sighs* thinking back of that time when I was so happy having those acquaintances as 'friends',I feel kinda stupid.
now.. even I were to have only 2 or 3 friends only, I will be satisfied, as long as they are really my friends.
good enough isn't it? ^^