:)

this should be my final post I'm sure.
since last month,
I no longer find the point of expressing myself through blog and FB
unless it's for sarcasm or I'm really mad. :P
hmm
there are many many things I want to update to my readers.
however, active readers... are way too limited. >.<

well, I will begin with my love story.
after all it is the main reason for this blog's existence. XD
maybe you all are curious,
do I have any new targets?
how about me and my potential 5th target?
alright honestly,
I don't have any new targets at the moment.
please understand the course I'm currently doing.
the number of boys are way more than girls! >.<
well, this semester I am a little lucky.
our batch is paired with the junior batch :)
and I noticed there are two ladies whom I think are attractive. :D
one of them.. is an international student I believe. (chinese-indon?)
she's pretty in my opinion. (8/10 score! O.O)
yes she puts on make up but it is light.
the second one.. she's local student.
her look is alright. not bad but.. she's sexy. O__O
I fk-ing love the way she dresses. ;D
damn they are going to distract me in every lecture! LOL
anyway, I hope I will be able to talk to them soon. (LIKE REALLY SOON)

next... yea.. my potential 5th target.
well, sorry to break this to some of you,
she has been dropped from my radar. :|
there are 2 main reasons for this.
firstly, I strongly believe that she's still with her bf. :(
it is quite obvious by looking at her latest FB photos.
hmm
I admit I was a little disappointed when I found out about it. :/
anyway, I knew this was coming already
since she was secretive whenever I ask about her social life.
again I couldn't understand,
why... was she constantly seeking me for company when she already has a life partner?
hmm
maybe.. she really treats me as her good friend from the beginning.
maybe.. before this I naively believed that she has interest in me. >.<

well, they don't matter so much.
I don't mind continuing to be her friend
instead I'm grateful to have her as my good friend. :D
it's the second reason that really puts her off my radar.
I kept thinking of the conversation we had since last year ago.
I noticed.. most of them are comfort-seeking conversation.
the rest.. occurred because she was bored and wanted me to entertain her. =.=
I don't remember her sharing her happiness with me. O.o
I felt.. I'm like a companion tool to her.
moreover, her attitude..
until now, I still haven't seen her matured side. :/
especially when she was seeking comfort from me,
she wanted to be pampered most of the time.
this.. is not something I would like to see from her.
alright I can forgive this attitude
since... it occurs to many ladies when they are upset.

I'm going to be very honest here.
I like ladies who are mature-minded. :D
when they think well, speak well, and behave well,
I really like it.
this is the class I wanted from a lady.
well, she clearly does not show any of this to me.
I know it's harsh
as I don't know her very well.
until she shows her matured side to me,
I'm not going to change my mind about her. :/

so... who's next?
hmm
actually, there was one.
she's from school of science.
I have been noticing her since last semester.
she's cute and fits almost all of my dream girl criteria
so it's not a surprise that I'm attracted to her.
well sadly, I didn't take any actions. >.<
so I never talk to her.. and didn't even know her name
until recently I miraculously found her FB profile. HELL YEAH! XD
I googled her name and yes I found her blog. (yes this is stalking X) )
I read her blog and....
she has a bf. FML
another person who is not meant to be. =.=
anyway, still can be her friend.... if possible. :P
but one thing I like about her is.. she's very ambitious. (from her blog posts)
that's why she works hard. :)
somehow, I feel motivated to work equally hard just to match her. XD
I hope one day I will be successful and then I will go to her and say,
"I'm your true Mr. Right ;)" XDXD
yes I know this thinking is fk-ing stupid
but hey it's motivational. LOL
anyway, she's not going to be my next target for obvious reasons.

since years ago, my criteria for my dream girl is:
cute (LOL yes please), hardworking, and good attitude.
am I too picky? LOL
well, now my criteria is still the same except
I would like my dream girl to be pretty instead of cute. >.<
I guess as you grow older, you will prefer pretties over cuties.
now one more characteristic has been added.
emphaty is a must for my dream girl.
I realized there aren't many people who understand me very well. :(
for example, not many understand why am I working so hard in academic.
well, in future, if I meet a girl who is pretty/cute, has good attitude and is hardworking.
alright I will be infatuated to her. (maybe not for long)
and.. if she understands me very well,
hmm yes I will consider her as my next target.
sounds strict eh? :P

I guess that's about it for my love story. :)
next.. I will talk a little on my course.
well, I have a good news to share.
last semester my results are much better than expected.
I got 4 HD's! :D
I was really lucky.
firstly, I thought I threw away my HD for Chemistry
since I did really badly during my finals.
I was fortunate to escape with a borderline HD. X)
next, my Thermodynamics.
initially, I got a D for it. :(
then, I went to review my paper in hope of claiming marks due to marking errors.
indeed there were marking errors and so I got my 4th HD. :)
I hope I can continue to keep improving and gain more respect from people. :P
I'm so grateful that all these while I managed to stick to my 'don't screw up!' policy
otherwise the result would be different I'm sure.

as for friendship,
hmm I have to admit I don't have many friends. :'(
oh well, I'm not friendly by nature. understandable.
but.. at least I still have AUSMAT friends
and my group mates from last semester.
not too bad. >.<
seriously, it doesn't really matter to me.
I don't need a large group of friends.
the reason is.. I won't get much attention. =.=
how am I going to express myself then? lol
so as long as I have at least a friend in my course who is close to me, (preferably a girl XD)
I'm more than satisfied. :)

hmm I can't think of anymore stuffs to write.
I'm done. :)
to the active readers, thanks for reading.
I really appreciate your patience. XD

alright,
bye bye bye~