this blog has been dead for more than a month.
actually I have a lot of things to blog about.
BUT
knowing that I have posted 199 posts so far.
I want my 200th post to be a significant one. ;D
I have already decided the contents. =)
yes, it's about my fourth again.
probably the very last post about her.
hi fourth, if somehow you are reading this post, be prepared.
we are already approaching week 8 of our course
and.. there's still no progress with our friendship.
I'M DISAPPOINTED. =(
I tried to contact you through sms.
I asked about your doings through pm.
Again, you barely replied me. =.=
I'm curious,
are you that busy? or... you aren't interested to talk to me?
you know I can't add you back on FB for many reasons
so what I can only do now is updating myself with your msn statuses. WTF
moreover, despite your constant msn updates,
you never appear online. O.O
OMG how are we supposed to keep in touch if this goes on? =/
next, when I met you in person,
you were so polite as usual. =___=
and it always ended up with a short conversation. =(
where's your enthusiasm when you were with your other guy friends? O.o
lastly, your ignorance!
there were many many times when you were very close to me
and yet you never noticed me and walked off. O.o
how is this happening?
the worst was last Tuesday when you were sitting facing me
and you didn't notice me. WTF
were you really that ignorant or you were pretending that I'm non-existent? X(
in the end, I had to make the first move to greet you. ==
would it be so hard for you to greet me first? O.o
oh well, surprisingly this time I'm not that disappointed.
maybe it's because this is not the first time you are treating me like this. >.<
I believe I'm the only one who is constantly receiving this treatment
and I absolutely have no idea why
just because I said you are also a potential Ms. Right?
anyway, this is seriously not the right thing to do.
*sighs*
I'm really sorry to say this.
actually you are quite messed up in attitude.
maybe only towards me. I don't know.
people who know what's happening between us keep telling me to move on, move on and move on.
OF COURSE I KNOW IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON
but somehow.. I couldn't get over you. >.<
the reason is personal. =/
I wonder for all the damage I have taken, am I actually asking for it? >.<
I don't know what should I do to get myself out of this torment.
finding a new target? O.o
or... I should find more girl friends? o.O
or... I should patiently wait for justice? O.O
at the moment, I'm really disappointed with you.
when you sent me that apology message.
I thought you are going to change.
moreover, you believed that we are going to be friends again someday.
I was really hoping for that day to come. =)
but looking at the current situation.
our friendship is getting from bad to worse. >___<
and.. it looks like you are going to remain who you are for the rest of the time.
*sighs*
honestly, I shouldn't have accepted your apology.
no point apologizing when you never have the intention to change. =/
when you have finally changed your messed up attitude,
you only come to apologize. =)
anyway, sorry for paragraphs above
I just want to vent my disappointments and frustrations. =P
because I hate it when I receive such treatments from you.
just for your info,
I no longer look for any Ms. Right now.
studies and friendship are my main focus now.
so you should be relieved. =)
well, maybe miracle can save our friendship.
just like last year. =D
but.. if it does happen.
I doubt I will change my mind again about you knowing you.
you may be nice at one particular time.
how about other times? >.<
I guess I won't hope for anything from you anymore.
I just want one thing from you.
that is... your hug. XD
I'm going to end this post with a question.
if unfortunately we become hi-bye friends,
what would your reaction be?
answer me honestly.
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