this is important

I have decided.
I'm going to declare this blog as inactive on my blog's 2nd year anniversary.

looking at how lazy I am to blog even though I'm on holiday now,
I already know that I have lost interest in blogging. =(
just look at the number of posts this month. =___=
I think blogging.. is tiring and is time consuming.
I tend to type a lot
then.. I have to edit the post (to reduce grammatical errors =.=)
then.. I have to read the post all over again and edit/remove some meaningless paragraphs.
it's the same routine for every new post. =.=

also.. there aren't many readers now.
last time.. there were 4 readers. not too bad.
now.. only 1 loyal reader. *sighs*
whenever I post something I will wonder if there will be anyone reading it.
if yes.. I'm happy and grateful.
if no.. it means I'm posting it for myself to read. (this is sad ==)
well, I can't complain.
I can't add many readers
as this is meant to be a private blog.
only people that I trust are allowed to read it. =/

thirdly.. is about the sincerity of the readers.
I realized 1 or 2 of them just skimmed through my posts. =.=
honestly.. I dislike it.
when I post something especially the serious ones.. I really hope for the readers to slowly read it and understand how I feel.
I noticed this when I talked to one of my readers about my problem, her response was, "oh u posted that on ur blog? I missed it sorry"
that was alright.
the worst was.. when I wanted to talk to another one about my problem
I told her to take her time to read my post.
to my surprise.. she took less than 20 seconds to read the entire long post. O.O
well.. I didn't really blame her.
I know my post is lengthy and boring
that's why I really appreciate it if you all do take your time to read my posts. =/

lastly.. my semester is starting at the end of next month.
from that time onwards.. I know I won't have time to blog already.
look how inactive I was for my previous semester
I was not only lazy but also didn't had time to blog. >.<

well, initially I planned to close this blog down
then I thought..
I might post something when I feel like it.
that's why I will declare it as inactive (or rather a dead) instead.
no worries.. I will ensure that I will blog some important stuffs before that.

yes it's already decided. =)
bye bye bye~