9/8/2010

today is also a special day.
it is her birthday. =)
months ago, I thought of doing nothing and just treat it as a normal day.
but since I have changed my mind already.
I just sent her a pm through Facebook. =P
me:
hey.. if you managed to read this then it's cool. It's my first time pm-ing someone. =P
I know it's weird to pm you but anyway.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =D
we haven't talked since that day. =( hopefully one day we have the time to meet up and talk la. I very long never find someone to complain to already. XD
I hope you will have a great day today. ^^
good night~
Jeremy =)
and she replied. O.o
her reply:
HEY... aha... yeah.. it's cool now! cuz i managed to read this message.. aha.. yeah.. i think we should meet up and talk again.. HAHA.. really? i am a good listener though.. XD do find me if u r emo! ehe.. Thanks for the birthday wish!
good night!
I was happy with her reply. =)

then during lunch time.
I was having lunch with Wen Leong.
and I saw her. O.o
she wore skirt. O.O
last week she wore sleeveless top and now..
urgh
why must she become more attractive at a time like this?? >.<
science course really do wonders.
or who knows she dressed like this just for that guy. =_=
anyway, she saw me and we greeted.
then she approached me and we talked for a while.
it wasn't a bad ending. =)

at least we are now back on talking terms.
even though I know we won't be as close as before. =(
it's better than shunning or ignoring her right?
at least now I'm a happier person.
someday I will find the opportunity to apologize to her for all the bad things I have done to her.
otherwise I will feel really bad. :\

oh well.. I guess after going through so many rational thinking,
it's time to accept the fact that she no longer has the time for me
it's time to accept the fact that she has changed in some ways. (look at her appearance now XP)
it's time to accept the fact that there are people like her who will always have a better and happier life than me.
and also..
it's time to accept the fact that she has a life partner already. =(
*sighs*
it may be sad and disappointing.
but accepting it is the only way.
we are still friends after all.
but one thing.. I'm still not planning to add her on Facebook and MSN. =.=
that still requires more time.

I wonder how is she going to celebrate her birthday.
who knows she will have a romantic dinner with that guy
and then will have a private time together at some secret and dark places?? >.<
and maybe there will be more than just touching.. T.T
OMG I can't bear to imagine it any further.
if.. if it's true..
it's my life all I can say. XD

and finally..
one day in the future she will read this blog
I will let her read when time is right. =)
so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE TIEN!! ^^
bye bye bye~