sigh...

my blog is dead again...
I'm sorry reader(s). ^^

oh well.. I was a little emo today.. and I wasn't really sure why..
It happened after I saw Ee Tien busy chatting with her friends..
she was really close to them..
then I realised that.. we are not that close after all..
I got the feeling that.. she just treats me as a good study partner.. just a good study partner.. nothing else..

sigh..
that makes me wonder again.. will we ever be close friends?? or.. we are gonna be just friends till we graduate?
well.. obviously it wasn't her fault..
maybe I haven't put in enough effort..? or.. my method is plain wrong?.. or.. maybe she's not interested in me at all?
I seriously don't know man..
I tried to like.. keep mixing with her.. but what if I scared her? annoyed her?
That's why I gave her cold treatment once in a while. Please understand. I don't want to make my interest towards her too obvious.
But what if my cold treatment makes her believe that I wasn't interested in her? DIE la like that.. T_T

sigh... I don't know what to do now..
I think.. I better concentrate on my studies first.. as for her.. maybe time will tell..
sometimes I asked myself.. do I actually like her? the reasons are quite stupid actually..