A Glimpse of Hope

I don't feel like continuing with part 2 because I'm a little lazy now. Haha.
I prefer to blog about something else.

Don't mind me, but I do always have interest in girls who are small sized, cute looking and hardworking. Not necessary must be pretty nor busty XD.

So, yeah. Since I was so fucking depressed for past two months because of Melody who hurt me like nobody's business, I looked forward to seeing the 3rd person I have interest in. Her name.... u all should know =P. It's not that I wanna get her as my girlfriend instantly but I hope she can make me smile for real.
Many people must thinking that I'm a player because I liked so many girls. But, seriously, I thought of it too. Why do I have interest in 3 girls at a time?

Ok, lets start with my 1st target. U all know her.
I actually have interest in her already since form 1. Just because... that time.. I believed someone told me that she adored me! I'm so so perasan man..
That's actually the time I noticed her in my class. Before that, I'm a bookworm type and only knows how to study, study and study (I passed with flying colours for my mid term k! XD)
Then, I realised, she's really cute! And.. she's hardworking! (a top 10 student at least!) So, I think it'll be great if she can be my girlfriend. Haha.
But the problem is.. I know nuts about couple stuffs and so. I only think of her being my gf in future. What an Idiot am I.
And.. I didnt make any effort at all to get close to her! Stupid me! See? How am I gonna expect her to notice me!?

So... time goes by.. I had crush on her till form 5.
But... she changed. She's no longer the hardworking girl I know (though she's still a smart girl!). And she's flirty too. I often see her mixing around with boys (recess time, in my class, during exam..). I know it's normal but I do feel uncomfortable. LOL I prefer my ideal girlfriend to be more of a sopan-santun type. Haha.
Sigh.. But, I wonder why I still had crush on her.
Then, I realised, I'm only going for her look actually. I dont know her personality very well.
And yes... I think I fell for her boobs too after getting influenced by her classmates. Geeezzzz
Moreover, I made an effort to approach her but it's not easy. It's super hard mannn especially when she's with her friends. Susah.. susah..
But, when I managed to approach her, I scared her. OMG! I felt like I fail as a guy wei.
and... she's like trying to avoid me already.
So, I think.. I better give up.
Afterall, we are not close. So if we do couple, our relationship definitely will not last long.
In fact, I think only about sex activites when I think about our future. OMG. (Jeremy! u suck a lot! Stop watching porn ady!!)
I think till now.. she's still avoiding me (she refused to accept me on msn). Haih...

And there goes my 2nd target! u know who k... LOL
I will not explain much bout her. I think I have interest on her because.... I think she can be the substitute of my 1st target (since she's also small sized, cute n hardworking. hehehe).
But, when she smiled, she's actually really cute leh! (sorry Joanne =P) and I really enjoyed those moments she manja-ed me and played with me! Plus her boobs... LOL and I noticed she do approached me a lot. I'm really really happy. It's the 1st time a girl treat me like this k! That's why she became my 2nd target already since last year because she's really close to me. Wanna get her to be my girlfriend also easier XD.
I seriously feel like hugging her whenever I see her.
Since we got really really close. So, I thought I have a chance.

But......... I think I expected too much from our relationship.
She treats me only as a friend all the while. Instead, all her new friends are more important to her than anyone else. I wonder if she ever remembered that I was once her close friend. We are no longer contacting each other. I'm so sad.
I noticed the way she approached her new friends is the same as the way she approached me all the while. I suddenly don't feel special anymore.
Moreover, I believed she has interest on someone else already. Just because he is able to make her happy everytime.
I'm so so disappointed. Why wanna give me so much of hope when she knows I'll forever be her friend??
Now, I don't even feel like talking to her. It hurts me bad whenever I see her being so happy with her new friends and that someone. Urgh!!

Anyway, I feel like giving up on her too, not mainly because of above statements.
But, is that she's super busy all the time. Also, she don't even have time to spend with me (Max is only 10 minutes?). So, how is our relationship gonna progress if it continues to be like this? The worst part is.. her boobs are too attractive. (forgive me, I'm a guy k..)
That's why in the end, I think what I like about her is mainly her boobs (I'm sorry).
So, I don't see a bright future between us too.
Oh well, maybe I just dont have luck in relationship. Unless miracle happens??

After having crush on my 2 targets. I realised that I liked their outer (looks and boobs XD) more than their personality.
So, I wanna tell myself this time to try liking a girl because of her personality and not her body.

And... it's time for me to turn on to my 3rd target.
I knew her ady in tuition last year.
and.. she's also the type of girl I interested in.
and... after reading her comments about herself. Hey, her characters are a bit like me wei. Haha.
and.. as far as I know.. she's quite the good girl type. Not too flirty like my 1st and 2nd target. Well, maybe I'm wrong.
But, I admire her hardworkingness. She really concerns her studies k! though she's not a genius and that's what I like. haha.
MOST IMPORTANTLY!! When I think of her.. surprisingly I never think of anything dirty leh!! LOL!! Maybe this time, I can slowly have feelings for her due to her personality only. LOL

And I dont know whether it's fate or not. She's coming to Sun-U!!! OMGWTFBBQ wei!! It has been my wish all the while!! Maybe God pitied me for all the pain I suffered till today and wanted me to start a new life!!
Yea.. most of u must be thinking, 'this Wah heng likes so many people! OMG! crazy salty wet fella!!'
Well, cant blame me. It cant be helped that they are cute, hardworking and small size! XD
Also, I dun have feelings for my 3rd target, I'm just interested in her! Maybe she can be my study partner leh! XD

Oh well, the problem is.. we are not close at all.
So, I'm afraid I will share the same fate like my 1st target lorh.
Well, anyways, I'll try my best to approach her! I want to start a brand new life!
Hopefully she's doing the same course as I am, then I'll thank God for everything He arranged for me man! XD
Even if she's doing different course, I dont mind. At least I still can see her everyday in college. That's more than enough. Haha. Once again, hopefully she can bring smile to my face.